I still don't know how to express

Long down the slope of past

I used to love the guy I was

As the passage went ahead

I chose to meet new people

and make some wonderful friends

With time my circle expound

we together enjoyed our golden compound

All of a sudden everything was just over

we were left there on our own 

to watch the truth from a bit closer

As we know it's hard to face the truth

in my case it actually shook my roots

Still the time passed by

I gradually became a jumble guy

Sometimes I am okay

Sometimes I am doomed

One day I am happy and smiling

the next day my mood is somehow screwed

I still don't know how to express

so this is just to let you know

even I have the guy underneath my skin

who actually somehow keeps actual me suppressed.